I dot know what to do. I wish I could feel normal, eat, sleep, dream, be happy. But my mind and body keep fucking me over no matter how much I want to be normal. I wish I could cry without hating myself, or not have to fake cheeriness all the time. I just hate the world sometimes and I’m sick of it. I keep telling myself I’ll be happy but I never seem to be. I alway eel bad after ranting like this because most people have it so much worst and I have no right to complain but it’s how I feel. Okay thanks for reading, I’m feeling a bit better and I need some sleep.